Sunday, October 12, 2008

Sometimes I feel like Dory

 fish....

Do you know why they bump into the glass all the time?

...just like Dory, their memory only lasts for two seconds.

They forget they're in a tank...seperated by this wall....this constant blockade that's always mocking..."nope" "not today" "try again in two seconds please"...and then once again...

 BAM! 

....Reminded that things cannot be the way you wish they are every two seconds. 

I am like a little Dory.

I constantly desire to make God human.
I constantly want to place Him amongst just another one of my peers. 
I constantly and selfishly want to treat Him similar to everything and anything else in my life.
I constantly demand that He act in ways I understand or recognize. 
I constantly forget that He is not like me...not like us. 

I know He's not human.
I know His ways are not my ways...but only for a little while.

...and then I'm reminded.

once again I've forgotten that I've forgotten. 

But like Dory, I'll just keep swimming...and forgetting...and swimming and forgetting...and the cycle will repeat many times...until my memory begins to improve...begins to lengthen...begins to be restored. 

Then I'll finally reach the place I was created for...where I always remember and never forget 

no more barriers....no more reminding...

just glory...

...just keep swimming
...just keep swimming...
...just keep swimming... swimming...swimming...